Oh Girl.....

Her elegance is like shimmering night,
as the night pass it makes moon scream
Effect of her hallow makes everything bright,
Those flickering light propels her in my dream

Every morning as sun kisses her feet,
like an exquisiteness of the wine
When ever the rays and her beauty meet,
make my heart glow on thought tht she is mine

Every time I look into her eyes,
serenity captivates and makes me numb
The so called level falls from the skies,
blocking the senses making it dumb

Mole above the lips, delicacy of her brow,
It's Soft, it's placid still its eloquent
The smiles that wins any heart and makes it glow,
a nice doll whose love is innocent

Something is there which is shoving my ears,
alarms me as that cacophonous scream
Now it seems everything is clear,
time to go for college, thats end of my DREAM...!!

Redemption 1.0

It is just a reflection of my perplexion
like an occult of past, hovering around
still having staunch belief of my redemption
and my mind starts arguing on weird ground

Mind, o mind evertime i try to tame u
ur behavoiur becomes bit uncanny
u ruin urself by ur own thoughts though
makes me feel that somewhere i had lost my identity

Identity,o identity searched u in d bottle of colours
everytime i took a dip, i got lost
exasperation surrendered found addition of new gloss
result took time leads to frustration as a cost

Time, o time why u are my biggest competitor
fighting with you never makes me feel better
because don't understand why i m alwayz a looser
still the rigor makes me smile irrespective of rigour

Mind, identity and time m exonerated by d Resurrection
because I m too tired to search in between d barb
i know somewhere beneath it lies my redemption
this only restrict me to end up this crap.

Why I don't have any Girlfriend

"Why I don't have any Girlfriend". At one point or another every male has asked this question to himself in his life, and i am not at all different. Like others i also try to reason my way through the dilemma nonetheless, often reaching a series of ridiculous explanations, each more self-deprecating than the last. I just try to count lots of ugly stuffs inside me and when all the plausible explanations have been discounted, I fall back on the time-honoured conclusion that "there must be Something Wrong within me" before resigning myself into lives of perpetual chastity. And just before the crescendo I start smiling because i know i have got the answer....;)


Ever since my child hood was over i was being bombarded by a series of hackneyed statements from my elders, relatives, family members etc which ultimately points towards the fact "Stay away from girls". Four times i had changed my place and every time, every1 concerned to me seems very concerned towards whether I do have any girlfriends or not, One of the friend of my cousin who was a professional palmist told me that bacchu u seems to be prty lucky with girls and asked me "How many girlfriends u have???" And you know what these all concern made me think about these things which i seldom had thought ever. Because it is something which alwayz was very irrelevant to me. As a despo (hey i was only 16 that time), once i asked my cousin bro"hey bhaiya is there any secret of getting a girl,i need a girlfriend badly". He told do one thing go to archies gallery, purchase a friendship card and go infront of Patna College and try to give it to any girl, the one who will accept it would be ur girlfriend. I never knew he was joking, and can u believe it i did the same..!!! and i dunno think it would be suitable here to explain what type of retribution i went through that day. Once my uncle(father of tht idea giver bro) was blurting that look kiddy thr was a boy who got killed just because he was in love with a girl. He was grand son of Chief justice of India. Moral of the story was STAY AWAY FROM GIRLSS... That was at the time of Grads. One of my friend used to tell me tht "1 thing is for sure u wud never hav any girl". That time i thought bad people's curse never hits u..but alas..!!

Often people ask me why u don't have any girlfriends and like the tranquility of a smug i use to give a stereotyped answer "the girl whom i want, don't want to want me and those who want me, nobody wants to want them". From few i got some severe rebuke like according to one of my friend "u are an inane impostor having impious towards damsels if there would be crests and trough of emotions then that place is grabbed by attitude and patience; so better forget about girls, you will never have any".

Yeah may be they are right I dunno deserve any girlfriends of many xyz reasons. But everytime one perverse question gibe with my mind " Is it really necessary to have any girlfriends??" If the answer is yes then why it is so....After so called doing research and so much of critical thing i came on some eminent conclusions.
1. Overflowing of Adrenalin Gland
2. For show off
3. For time pass
4. For having give and take relationship
5. and lot more in short for mutual satisfaction
.....but naysayers defend it by saying essential desire of people is being loved by some1, and no1 can love u more sophistic-ally than ur girlfriend....and thats what i call a deep BULLSHIT.

For me love is something which in 90% of cases can not be provided by any type of girlfriend. Isn't weird that people who claim that they know the meaning of true love hates the entire world , they are the one who are filled by envy, hatred and back bitching. Are yaar how can one say that he/she is in love if he have all those negative attributes. Even I dunno understand that how come love brings us pain as it one of the three sutras to get the god. Pain is brooded by selfishness, believe it or not but that's true. And one final thing that every types of love are same be it of mother, father, god, sister or any girlfriend. We should not brew it with our masalas and bifurcate it into types.

Now why i don't have any girlfriend..!! See how screwed my ideas are. and the most appropriate answer of it would be........(please don't laugh) May Be My Life Partner's Prayer is Working...;)


When I was desperate
People told me
u don't have cellphone
and I smiled

When I got cell phone
People told me
u don't have bike
and I smiled

When I got bike
People told me
U don't study in a college
and I smiled

When I started studying in college
people told me
U don't have laptop
and I smiled

When I got laptop
People told me
U don't have Job
and I smiled

When I wud get a job
people would tell me
ur time has got over,
concentrate on ur career
let your parents put the barrier
and for sure i will smile..........:)

All of a sudden felt a knock...

All of a sudden felt a knock...
was like some1 poofed an old dusty rock...

It was like a pearl thrown into a placid lake, which was deserted by me and was locked in one corner of my mind. The waves of the tear shook me for a while, was amazed to them which were set free for a while. The Shock was such it took me back to the flashback which was full of sweet and bitter memories. Just in two minutes I saw my 15 years of blind faith. Every time this pearl cause increase in the volume of lake but this time... was just standing on the shore like an unperturbed soul, I asked placidly why u are behaving as such; returned the voice “O killer! Ask yourself in a sacrosanct manner and u ll get the answer”. Killer.. I thought for a while, when my faith is alive, how can i kill that. But I due accept that my mind lost its fidelity towards it, but that doesn’t prove that I am a killer. After 15 years of continuous worship when my god changed its colour, my expertise as an iconoclast makes that situation as bad as hell.

Whenever I try to think why it happened, how it happened, when it happened I don’t find any answer because the pit created between our hearts turns out to be a chasm. I used to say if u come one step closer I will surely come two step closer, but unfortunately he didn’t get what was the implicit statement which unfortunately means go one step far I will double the same.
People envied our relationship and i often come across to statements like “these two are tuned on the same notes”. It was amazing to hear statements like “what kind of love is this” from our very own dear ones. I used to cherish those moments spent together; sometimes I cry furiously sometimes I used to laugh like anything.

But, Yes today there is nothing I feel. Whenever something disturbs that placid lake indeed for sometimes i feel the wave but... unfortunately this doesn’t steer my emotions. I just remember those times but neither it gives me happiness nor feeling of pensive sadness.. Maybe my voice was right. I am a Killer to be more specific a stoic Killer. Just because of this it is very easy for me to Kill any kind emotions......

Finally I met the Sea....

This was the 1st time I visited any Sea kinda stuff...must tell u it was majestic. Arabian sea was making me numb as it was a time of high tide and my heart, mind and so called soul stirred whatever conception i had.



Brackish water were kissing my feet as i thanked the universe for this rendezvous. Suddenly, i felt my feet was going down in the soil, it was scary enough to shiver my spines. I was constantly changing my positions because of the thought of getting swallowed by this giant. 'Gaint' , yeah!! a thing of great size, ability, courage which can destroy our entire so called civilization where we civilized people think we can tame anything. Then all of a sudden i sensed some murmur around me, looked desperately at mirth imbued people but found nothing, exactly at that time a wave hit me as she was saying itz me u idiot, all i want to say is go back this is not a place to enjoy, we are the killers and just waiting for a slight signal from the universe and we will eat you all. My mind was getting perplexed at this inscrutable situation. I thought she is making sense still people are enjoying, they don't know even why they are doing so, perhaps romanticizing things. So i concluded that we people are like an ant who irrespective of her small size doesn't care about the massive things present in this world which can cause her death, even if it causes nobody cares nor they take any lessons.

Just then an another frivolous wave hit me, i asked who you are and the reply was an another hit, this time bit hard. On careful empirical observation i found that every waves were rolling towards the shore kissing the embankment and sweetly submitting her existence to the sea or in other words sea was obliterating all its wave and with that water only it was generating some other wave whose fate was the same as of their previous versions. I smiled because that was nothing but LIFE..!! Undoubtedly, we are like a wave. No one cares its existence. Many came and went the shore is the same, the sea is the same and the sun is also the same. Ultimately we have to meet our source who had sent us to taste, enjoy and feel the shore. Some do succeed, some get sucked up in between due to lack of driving force and some are superimposed or killed by the stronger ones but the fate of all are the same, either they want or not they have to hug their source at last. And then they are returned to the shore in some other form. One more protocol was proved there that nothing is permanent except change.


Last thing what I inferred while skimming the entire sea at a time was the fact that woman and sea are same in many respect. Both are deep in their emotions, both have lots of nuggets inside their hearts, both have got the blessings to create new things.

I was standing alone thinking all these weird things, people were smiling probably thinking that this weirdo seems different. I was also doing the same thinking they all are the same. There was smile on everyone's face including mine. That day i learnt "life is all about celebration" . We should celebrate everything doesn't matter if it is death...................

miss you...

.....few people came in ur life and just go like that.....
but they leave an aroma behind which forever lasts....
Doesn't matter whether u talked or shared much feelings....
but their presence only can do loads of healing....
itz strange that it hurts a lot while they leave....
still u r not able to the emotions the love in which u alwayz had believe...
u fight wid ur inner-selves why this separation pains...
but deep down inside u know that humans are alwayz in chains...

past 10 dayz of my life....

Landed in the city of Gandhi
was feeling obnoxious like a sour candy
met soumya mam 1st at the gate
was happie like anything nd thanking my fate

later all seniors arrived
felt the bliss as my heart cried
next day at office it was like a dream come true
to see D-SAG is run by XISS crew nd i hav nothing to do

my topic was changed, thought was in some bay
they gave me project proposal but i slept throughout the day
in the evening tried to do some mocket
so i launched my seniors by giving them Rocket

next day we went to visit Ahmadabad
along wid us a girl was there nd was not at all bad
we visited sabarmati aashram where i was in numb type siesta
Jain mandir and jhulta minar made me feel like a fiesta.

while returning from there i talked to that gurl
found two screws of head was missing but she was kool
madness was there in her name as ppl call her madhuri wasn't a normal lass
that night was awesome as i hemant sir nd soumya mam was having some grass(lol..!!)

then how did the rest of dayz passed i don remember
was all fun, frolic, crazy will last forever
D-SAG was also fun as ppl wr nice having some determination
memorable was the party with having XISS's five generation

last thing i remember i was tipsy last night
heard a mad speech on a mad cow from some1 mad
thought i was blurting from my core
coz never felt the way i felt before

next day, suddenly everything seemed a lie
environment was getting scary as it was time to say good bye
was acting like a clown coz i don't want to cry
i knew i was going to miss some beautiful people till i die

in the past 10 days learnt the true meaning of life
which cuts every barrier from love named knife
as nothing is permanent in this materialistic world
so sing, dance and celebrate each and every moment as a bird....

A friend

When you feel sad and betrayed
Who can you count on every single day?
When you feel lost and alone
Who will be there for you in every way?

When you've made mistakes and bad decisions
Who can you count on to tell you you're wrong?
When you feel you can't go on
Who will be there with a feel-better song?

Look into your heart and you will find
That person you can trust is not far away.
Look deep into yourself, don't give up,
For if you do, it's yourself you'll betray.

When you're looking for answers
To all your questions and dreams,
There is one person you can count on,
It's impossible, I know, it seems.

But take a few moments to look deeper inside.
Look into your heart and there you will see.
You'll be surprised when you find out
That you've been looking at ME.

People say I am a replica of yours

When i was a kid

My brain seemed to get clot

I start doing inane things

Coz your presence scares me a lot

I tried to avoid you

By viewing your books of 1000 pages

and was all about snow covered mountains

Which made me feel i am in chains

Once my mom started crying when i said

I don’t want to study anymore

U came and slapped me hard

I felt disparaging, but learned the importance of a sister

When my childhood days were over

I sensed something very noble and great in you

Gradually my fear was also over

But still was very scared what if u know about my bad habits too

U knew how to cure a disease without medicine

How to judge a gem with naked eyes

How to influence people in one meeting only

And these professions fetched my fascination

When i was in grad

We talked a lot about jargons

Then something happened which i had never dreamt of

We became friends

Whenever i had any problem

I knew someone was there to help me out

It was all because of you

This mba thing had taken sprout

After the debacle of XAT exam

I thought everything went for a toss

So i went to a birthday party to have some dram

Then i had your thought which gave me a gloss

Don’t know why that night u preached a lot

Told me about your struggle which I never had thought

That increased my will and made my faith soar

I started loving u more than ever.

Next day, while I was in hangover

I received a call which blocked my senses

It shivered my spines made which made me numb

Was not able to accept the fact that u left us alone

People say I am a replica of yours

But I know

U were an ocean and i am not even a shore..

When you thought I wasn’t looking

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You hung my first painting on the refrigerator

And I wanted to paint another.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You fed a stray cat

And I thought it was good to be kind to animals.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You baked a birthday cake just for me

And I knew that little things were special things.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You said a prayer

And I believed there was a God that I could always talk to.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You kissed me good-night

And I felt loved.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

I saw tears come from your eyes

And I learned that sometimes things hurt—

But that it’s alright to cry.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You smiled

And it made me want to look that pretty too.

When you thought I wasn’t looking

You cared

And I wanted to be everything I could be.

When you thought I wasn’t looking—

I looked . . .

And wanted to say thanks maa

For all those things you did

When you thought I wasn’t looking........

Was XISS an Accident.....

It was 7^th of December 2009 when it all started. Today was Gau’s (sandeep) Birthday, and i was not in a mood to call him, reason!! He haven’t greeted me on mine either which was on 3^rd of December. But dun know why i called him....shayad this is an elegant example of destiny...i greeted him....after doing some balderdash , he asked me how my prep of M.B.A was going on. I told him that i was much optimistic about IRMA and XIMB, as i am targeting for rural management, and i m putting my 100% effort for it. He then asked me had i filled form of XISS-Ranchi. I asked what that is. Then he told me, this college is also a champion of Rural management. Carelessly i told him okey ll pay heed over your information.

Results of IRMA was out and i missed it by 1 marks. CAT was disastrous. XAT was average. Only two things were infront of me, one was call of XIMB, another CET-MAH exam. In short i was HOPELESS!!! Then I remembered about XISS. Opened its site and the very 1^st thing i found was :-

“WE DON’T ACCEPT ANY DONATIONS. PLEASE DONT GIVE DONATIONS TO ANYONE”

I laughed a lot and was feeling very skeptic about this college. I called my friend, he assured me that dun worry, xiss takes donations but I’ll manage in your case, I have got huge contacts...blah blah!!!! Then I checked for its last date, and found only 4 dayz are left. Draft worth rs. 650 was required. I downloaded the application form and called my home sweet home for monetary assistance. They told me okey we will send you money tomorrow. I had to fill form immediately because if I wait for money to come then I would not be able to send the draft @ right time., so I borrowed money from a friend and made draft. Fortunately Draft was with me @ 12o’clock. Now I filled all the forms and went post-office to submit it. Post office personnel Refused to take the post for speed post because in the address of XISS, P.O box number was given. They told me to just mail it simply. I rushed towards courier office , they also refused to accept it. Condition was very bad. I Was thinking what to do. Then i don’t know what made me call to @ xiss office . I called there and blurted my dilemma. They told me just send it without P.O box number. At first i was scared then i thought leave it yaar.. if accepted good good .. if not vry good. So, i mailed my form without po box no.

Now it was time of getting shortlisted students for G.D/P.I. lo!! my name was not there in the list. I was more or less fucked up. I thought what the hell was happening with me!!!! i called to xiss office nd told about it. They told me not to worry as a second list of 15 ppl is also coming. If your name is not there in that list then assume that your form was rejected for XYZ reasons.Fortunately, my name was there in the second list.

Now it was my g.d/pi time when i reached college i found a girl from I.M.S (ankita natal) was there. As i had never talked to her, I preferred not to talk. When i reached the hall i found approx 70 ppl were there. Then i did the stuff which i usually do @ every examinations. I started scanning out that who can compete me, i found every1 here can compete me coz they all were looking great and speaking beautifully. After waiting for 5 hours my turn of G.D came. I was exhausted and hungry too. When we were made sit in a room for G.D then i was not knowing that one trouble was egarly waiting for me. My form was absent!!! It was not with the instructor. After 25 min 1 staff came with my form then i was relived. Anant sir and Sanjay Verma sir were there in the panel. All was well in G.D. Now, when P.I started Bhagat sir and Panda sir was there for it.It was satisfactory.

As my interview was over i asked chances of getting admission from gau. He again assured me not to worry, he is there.

After some dayz i found i was kicked off from XIMB. I thought everything is over. I called gau and now, he told me that no contacts are working. If you want to take admission then you have to give approx 3.5 lakhs. I told him that my parents are not going to give a single rupee in the name of donation, so is there any chances for meritorious students @ xiss. He simply told me only 10% students are meritorious here. I told him to forget about it as i am not going to take admission there. It was very disappointing to be betrayed like this!!!! I was very depressed actually not able to think, and was planning to commit suicide. In this period two of my friends helped me a lot. One was Niraj, and other was Raj shekhar who is currently @ LBS,Delhi.

Then after few dayz CET-MAH results were out and i scored good percentile(~98) and was very sure of getting a good college through it. My G.D/P.I center was @ Mumbai. So, 1 day I went to cyber cafe for reservation. I called my home that incoming for Bombay was available but outgoing was in waiting. In between i thought to check XISS web site to see final results, already i was two dayz late. At first glance i didn't found my name so, i closed the document and started checking for logistics. Don’t know what happened i reopened the document to see how many girls they have selected for rural development course. Suddenly i found my name @ 26th place.^th position......

I AM NOT SURE THAT WAS IT MERELY A LUCK OR I WAS DESTINED TO COME AT THIS PLACE BUT 1 THING IS FOR SURE:-

"When a person really desires something, all the universe conspires to help that person to realize his dream"

Flout a relation with impunity

I don remember @ what age he did tht mistake, but yes that mistake force me to write this interesting tale of two people.

here it goes..

There was a stupid boy in a small town of Simutalla named Rahil, who was vry flamboyant type of kid. When he was (i guess) in class 7 then one day his phone rang. The phone was from Kalyani(a small place in bihar much bigger than Simutalla). Okey it was from his maternal grandmother's house. On the other side of the phone thr was a girl named Raveena(beautiful, smart, haughty,selfish...) maternal cousin of his. So, unfortunately he received d call, and after 10 sec he started getting restless, then he saw Sahil(supercool, attractive, intelligent, soft spoken..)was coming from corridor. What he did was cleverly handed the receiver to him.....This was the first time when they talked and what these two young birds talked is still a mystery for that little kid.

Some blood relationships

(Rahil's's mother's sister in law(muz. side) was sister in law of Sahil's father's sister. Rahil's father and Sahil's father are siblings. Raveena is By-Product of Rahil's mother's sister in law(muz. side). And Sahil is by-product of Rahil's father's brother )

Sahil who resides in patna with his family was diligent, intelligent and a very great student(as his mother says) and was preparing for M.C.A entrance examination. Raveena was trying her hands in advertisements.They gradually started talking and became very good friends in a vry short period of time. They hav got a common relative @ calcutta where she went for some 2 months of training. Fortunately Sahil was also there for his cet-mah exam. Then u can understand what would hav happened. These birds were now love birds. They made many unrealistic commitments which they thinks was love. But the biggest problem in-front of them was of marriage. Because like a flop hindi movie, family of the two doesn't like each other, especially boy's father(....reason!!! will tell u in some other story..but for now only this that something had happened @ his father's marriage). The biggest starring feature of the boy's father was that exezpt his son he hates every1. But as u know love is blind..in this case mental too, these two love birds were making there relationship more concerte day by day(..it is other thing without proper concrete and sand they were making their hawa mahal..). Sahil started preparing for bank P.O examination, because he was in hurry of marriage at the same time he was givin m.c.a entrance.

Raveena was consistently putting pressure on sahil to clear P.O examination so that they could get married. But fate had something else for them. After so many years of preparation he finally cracked an avg N.I.T college, and went there for doing M.C.A(3 years ....so shaadi impossible), cut all his contact with ruchi, was in a relationship with some othe gurl named Tejaswini. After 1 year Raveena got married (..heard tht it was love marriage..) and currently she is in bangalore. Their relationship is still a mystry for others. Actually itz good coz if revealed then there would be an another mahabharata in his house.

And the best thing of this story is the face that both the families hav cut their relationship with Rahil's family.....

So, moral of the story is.................;)

Right against Discrimination - Child Labour

Children are important assets of any society and nation. They are not only the future citizens of any nation but also its strength in reserve. Protection of children is crucial to their survival, health, and well-being. Everyday millions of children are exploited, abused, or are victims of violence. Bought and sold like commodities, children are forced to be soldiers, prostitutes, sweatshop workers, and servants. Abuse, exploitation and violence, occurring usually in private, are often elements in organized crime and corruption.

Whenever we talk on discrimination against children first thing which generally strikes is Child labour. Child labour is perceived to be an economic necessity of poor households and the exploitative aspect in children’s work is associated with the profit maximizing motive of commercial enterprises, wherein children are made to work long hours, paid low wages and denied opportunities for education. International Labour Organization (ILO) defines Child labour as

“…include children leading permanently adult lives, working long hours for low wages under conditions damaging to their health, and physical and mental development, sometimes separated from their families, frequently deprived of meaningful educational and training opportunities that could open up to them a better future ”

India is an overpopulated and a low-income country has the vulnerability of falling prey to the menace of child labour, because of multiple factors. Parents for instance, because of their low income often put greater weight age on the quantity of children rather than on the quality. They often treat children as an asset- a source of supplementing family’s income as well as means of mortgage, apart from providing the supposed old age security to them. Thus, their own parents exploit the children not intentionally but as a part of their culture.

In India no major groups within or outside the government are considered with enforcing child labor laws or making education compulsory, for no particular group is moved by theological, ideological, moral or even self interest considerations. The government officials are fully aware of the international embarrassment that comes with having the world’s largest population of child laborers and adult illiterates, but they ascribe the failure to achieve universal education as a result of the country’s poverty rather than the government’s failure.

Thus, the demand of Children are so much high that their emergence within the workforce reduces the demand of adult manual workers, which eventually leads to adult unemployment, the competition is such that it reduces their wages as a result of which they too face poverty. If we say child labor is simply the single most important source of child exploitation and child abuse in the World today that would be accepted without any doubt. And we can also add our propositions firmly that the working children suffer significant growth deficits compared to children in school. They grow up shorter and underweight, and their body size continues to be smaller even in adulthood. The non-enrolment and school dropouts are also be considered the mirror images, which are reflecting the jerky uneven socio-economic development of a country. There is a need for multiplicity of actions both by government and non-government social organizations. The poor implementation of the legislation makes the problem more severe. The enforcement machineries should be strengthened in this regard to effectively implement the legalities for the social justice to the child.

We know that development is the major concern of all the nations; the path must be very genuine without the arbitrary manipulations of the human resources, particularly the children. Because they are not only the future of any country but also future of the world.