All of a sudden felt a knock...

All of a sudden felt a knock...
was like some1 poofed an old dusty rock...

It was like a pearl thrown into a placid lake, which was deserted by me and was locked in one corner of my mind. The waves of the tear shook me for a while, was amazed to them which were set free for a while. The Shock was such it took me back to the flashback which was full of sweet and bitter memories. Just in two minutes I saw my 15 years of blind faith. Every time this pearl cause increase in the volume of lake but this time... was just standing on the shore like an unperturbed soul, I asked placidly why u are behaving as such; returned the voice “O killer! Ask yourself in a sacrosanct manner and u ll get the answer”. Killer.. I thought for a while, when my faith is alive, how can i kill that. But I due accept that my mind lost its fidelity towards it, but that doesn’t prove that I am a killer. After 15 years of continuous worship when my god changed its colour, my expertise as an iconoclast makes that situation as bad as hell.

Whenever I try to think why it happened, how it happened, when it happened I don’t find any answer because the pit created between our hearts turns out to be a chasm. I used to say if u come one step closer I will surely come two step closer, but unfortunately he didn’t get what was the implicit statement which unfortunately means go one step far I will double the same.
People envied our relationship and i often come across to statements like “these two are tuned on the same notes”. It was amazing to hear statements like “what kind of love is this” from our very own dear ones. I used to cherish those moments spent together; sometimes I cry furiously sometimes I used to laugh like anything.

But, Yes today there is nothing I feel. Whenever something disturbs that placid lake indeed for sometimes i feel the wave but... unfortunately this doesn’t steer my emotions. I just remember those times but neither it gives me happiness nor feeling of pensive sadness.. Maybe my voice was right. I am a Killer to be more specific a stoic Killer. Just because of this it is very easy for me to Kill any kind emotions......