This is coming only because of the fact that last evening a colleague who is from a literature background had praised my writing skills. Had I not been associated with a guru I would have named the title as "The prisoner's Dilemma". But they say take it for granted that you are free when you are with a guru. If I am free the there should not be any dilemma and id I am in dilemma it is quite evident that I'm not free. This is catch 22.
I have always been a not so normal person with heart of a drunk and a kid. A year before I desperately used to defy and deceive that childish behaviour of mine which later I was told from my friend that it comes out with a bang everytime I was drunk. Today, the situation is such that without drinking or anything most of the times I'm high and the child is there but this time the childishness is replaced by child like. Being a child like is good because you dont live without any apprehension. But, it has its own course of action.
It's been a couple of days Since I'm having such weird feeling. The day my senior told me to start looking for another job It scared the hell our of me. I'm not scared because I would leave this job. Because to be frank this job is bit boring. I'm scared beacuse things might happen that I would have to leave some friends like Nishit and Tanya. As I am writing this line I simply can't explain the suffocation which is there inside me. Something is there which comes out in the form of tears. An hour before I was simply unable to resist my tears (though I did because I was in cafeteria. Every time it happens there. Oh Boy!). Why because Nishit is supposed to take his first happiness course. When Asked a friend about it she (you know who!) said "what help? Its nice to be happy in others happiness." Little did I knew that being emotional and crying without any reason is a sign of happiness. Anyway but that is not the point. The point is the love which takes its form because it is already there. May be when guruji says "It doesnt matter to whom you love..". I think this dilemma made me learn a valuable lesson today that Love is something which I am made up of and irrespective of person place and things, its probability of coming out depends on the recognition of the depth of the love.
Chalo thik hai!
I have always been a not so normal person with heart of a drunk and a kid. A year before I desperately used to defy and deceive that childish behaviour of mine which later I was told from my friend that it comes out with a bang everytime I was drunk. Today, the situation is such that without drinking or anything most of the times I'm high and the child is there but this time the childishness is replaced by child like. Being a child like is good because you dont live without any apprehension. But, it has its own course of action.
It's been a couple of days Since I'm having such weird feeling. The day my senior told me to start looking for another job It scared the hell our of me. I'm not scared because I would leave this job. Because to be frank this job is bit boring. I'm scared beacuse things might happen that I would have to leave some friends like Nishit and Tanya. As I am writing this line I simply can't explain the suffocation which is there inside me. Something is there which comes out in the form of tears. An hour before I was simply unable to resist my tears (though I did because I was in cafeteria. Every time it happens there. Oh Boy!). Why because Nishit is supposed to take his first happiness course. When Asked a friend about it she (you know who!) said "what help? Its nice to be happy in others happiness." Little did I knew that being emotional and crying without any reason is a sign of happiness. Anyway but that is not the point. The point is the love which takes its form because it is already there. May be when guruji says "It doesnt matter to whom you love..". I think this dilemma made me learn a valuable lesson today that Love is something which I am made up of and irrespective of person place and things, its probability of coming out depends on the recognition of the depth of the love.
Chalo thik hai!
