Oh Girl.....

Her elegance is like shimmering night,
as the night pass it makes moon scream
Effect of her hallow makes everything bright,
Those flickering light propels her in my dream

Every morning as sun kisses her feet,
like an exquisiteness of the wine
When ever the rays and her beauty meet,
make my heart glow on thought tht she is mine

Every time I look into her eyes,
serenity captivates and makes me numb
The so called level falls from the skies,
blocking the senses making it dumb

Mole above the lips, delicacy of her brow,
It's Soft, it's placid still its eloquent
The smiles that wins any heart and makes it glow,
a nice doll whose love is innocent

Something is there which is shoving my ears,
alarms me as that cacophonous scream
Now it seems everything is clear,
time to go for college, thats end of my DREAM...!!

Redemption 1.0

It is just a reflection of my perplexion
like an occult of past, hovering around
still having staunch belief of my redemption
and my mind starts arguing on weird ground

Mind, o mind evertime i try to tame u
ur behavoiur becomes bit uncanny
u ruin urself by ur own thoughts though
makes me feel that somewhere i had lost my identity

Identity,o identity searched u in d bottle of colours
everytime i took a dip, i got lost
exasperation surrendered found addition of new gloss
result took time leads to frustration as a cost

Time, o time why u are my biggest competitor
fighting with you never makes me feel better
because don't understand why i m alwayz a looser
still the rigor makes me smile irrespective of rigour

Mind, identity and time m exonerated by d Resurrection
because I m too tired to search in between d barb
i know somewhere beneath it lies my redemption
this only restrict me to end up this crap.

Why I don't have any Girlfriend

"Why I don't have any Girlfriend". At one point or another every male has asked this question to himself in his life, and i am not at all different. Like others i also try to reason my way through the dilemma nonetheless, often reaching a series of ridiculous explanations, each more self-deprecating than the last. I just try to count lots of ugly stuffs inside me and when all the plausible explanations have been discounted, I fall back on the time-honoured conclusion that "there must be Something Wrong within me" before resigning myself into lives of perpetual chastity. And just before the crescendo I start smiling because i know i have got the answer....;)


Ever since my child hood was over i was being bombarded by a series of hackneyed statements from my elders, relatives, family members etc which ultimately points towards the fact "Stay away from girls". Four times i had changed my place and every time, every1 concerned to me seems very concerned towards whether I do have any girlfriends or not, One of the friend of my cousin who was a professional palmist told me that bacchu u seems to be prty lucky with girls and asked me "How many girlfriends u have???" And you know what these all concern made me think about these things which i seldom had thought ever. Because it is something which alwayz was very irrelevant to me. As a despo (hey i was only 16 that time), once i asked my cousin bro"hey bhaiya is there any secret of getting a girl,i need a girlfriend badly". He told do one thing go to archies gallery, purchase a friendship card and go infront of Patna College and try to give it to any girl, the one who will accept it would be ur girlfriend. I never knew he was joking, and can u believe it i did the same..!!! and i dunno think it would be suitable here to explain what type of retribution i went through that day. Once my uncle(father of tht idea giver bro) was blurting that look kiddy thr was a boy who got killed just because he was in love with a girl. He was grand son of Chief justice of India. Moral of the story was STAY AWAY FROM GIRLSS... That was at the time of Grads. One of my friend used to tell me tht "1 thing is for sure u wud never hav any girl". That time i thought bad people's curse never hits u..but alas..!!

Often people ask me why u don't have any girlfriends and like the tranquility of a smug i use to give a stereotyped answer "the girl whom i want, don't want to want me and those who want me, nobody wants to want them". From few i got some severe rebuke like according to one of my friend "u are an inane impostor having impious towards damsels if there would be crests and trough of emotions then that place is grabbed by attitude and patience; so better forget about girls, you will never have any".

Yeah may be they are right I dunno deserve any girlfriends of many xyz reasons. But everytime one perverse question gibe with my mind " Is it really necessary to have any girlfriends??" If the answer is yes then why it is so....After so called doing research and so much of critical thing i came on some eminent conclusions.
1. Overflowing of Adrenalin Gland
2. For show off
3. For time pass
4. For having give and take relationship
5. and lot more in short for mutual satisfaction
.....but naysayers defend it by saying essential desire of people is being loved by some1, and no1 can love u more sophistic-ally than ur girlfriend....and thats what i call a deep BULLSHIT.

For me love is something which in 90% of cases can not be provided by any type of girlfriend. Isn't weird that people who claim that they know the meaning of true love hates the entire world , they are the one who are filled by envy, hatred and back bitching. Are yaar how can one say that he/she is in love if he have all those negative attributes. Even I dunno understand that how come love brings us pain as it one of the three sutras to get the god. Pain is brooded by selfishness, believe it or not but that's true. And one final thing that every types of love are same be it of mother, father, god, sister or any girlfriend. We should not brew it with our masalas and bifurcate it into types.

Now why i don't have any girlfriend..!! See how screwed my ideas are. and the most appropriate answer of it would be........(please don't laugh) May Be My Life Partner's Prayer is Working...;)


When I was desperate
People told me
u don't have cellphone
and I smiled

When I got cell phone
People told me
u don't have bike
and I smiled

When I got bike
People told me
U don't study in a college
and I smiled

When I started studying in college
people told me
U don't have laptop
and I smiled

When I got laptop
People told me
U don't have Job
and I smiled

When I wud get a job
people would tell me
ur time has got over,
concentrate on ur career
let your parents put the barrier
and for sure i will smile..........:)

All of a sudden felt a knock...

All of a sudden felt a knock...
was like some1 poofed an old dusty rock...

It was like a pearl thrown into a placid lake, which was deserted by me and was locked in one corner of my mind. The waves of the tear shook me for a while, was amazed to them which were set free for a while. The Shock was such it took me back to the flashback which was full of sweet and bitter memories. Just in two minutes I saw my 15 years of blind faith. Every time this pearl cause increase in the volume of lake but this time... was just standing on the shore like an unperturbed soul, I asked placidly why u are behaving as such; returned the voice “O killer! Ask yourself in a sacrosanct manner and u ll get the answer”. Killer.. I thought for a while, when my faith is alive, how can i kill that. But I due accept that my mind lost its fidelity towards it, but that doesn’t prove that I am a killer. After 15 years of continuous worship when my god changed its colour, my expertise as an iconoclast makes that situation as bad as hell.

Whenever I try to think why it happened, how it happened, when it happened I don’t find any answer because the pit created between our hearts turns out to be a chasm. I used to say if u come one step closer I will surely come two step closer, but unfortunately he didn’t get what was the implicit statement which unfortunately means go one step far I will double the same.
People envied our relationship and i often come across to statements like “these two are tuned on the same notes”. It was amazing to hear statements like “what kind of love is this” from our very own dear ones. I used to cherish those moments spent together; sometimes I cry furiously sometimes I used to laugh like anything.

But, Yes today there is nothing I feel. Whenever something disturbs that placid lake indeed for sometimes i feel the wave but... unfortunately this doesn’t steer my emotions. I just remember those times but neither it gives me happiness nor feeling of pensive sadness.. Maybe my voice was right. I am a Killer to be more specific a stoic Killer. Just because of this it is very easy for me to Kill any kind emotions......

Finally I met the Sea....

This was the 1st time I visited any Sea kinda stuff...must tell u it was majestic. Arabian sea was making me numb as it was a time of high tide and my heart, mind and so called soul stirred whatever conception i had.



Brackish water were kissing my feet as i thanked the universe for this rendezvous. Suddenly, i felt my feet was going down in the soil, it was scary enough to shiver my spines. I was constantly changing my positions because of the thought of getting swallowed by this giant. 'Gaint' , yeah!! a thing of great size, ability, courage which can destroy our entire so called civilization where we civilized people think we can tame anything. Then all of a sudden i sensed some murmur around me, looked desperately at mirth imbued people but found nothing, exactly at that time a wave hit me as she was saying itz me u idiot, all i want to say is go back this is not a place to enjoy, we are the killers and just waiting for a slight signal from the universe and we will eat you all. My mind was getting perplexed at this inscrutable situation. I thought she is making sense still people are enjoying, they don't know even why they are doing so, perhaps romanticizing things. So i concluded that we people are like an ant who irrespective of her small size doesn't care about the massive things present in this world which can cause her death, even if it causes nobody cares nor they take any lessons.

Just then an another frivolous wave hit me, i asked who you are and the reply was an another hit, this time bit hard. On careful empirical observation i found that every waves were rolling towards the shore kissing the embankment and sweetly submitting her existence to the sea or in other words sea was obliterating all its wave and with that water only it was generating some other wave whose fate was the same as of their previous versions. I smiled because that was nothing but LIFE..!! Undoubtedly, we are like a wave. No one cares its existence. Many came and went the shore is the same, the sea is the same and the sun is also the same. Ultimately we have to meet our source who had sent us to taste, enjoy and feel the shore. Some do succeed, some get sucked up in between due to lack of driving force and some are superimposed or killed by the stronger ones but the fate of all are the same, either they want or not they have to hug their source at last. And then they are returned to the shore in some other form. One more protocol was proved there that nothing is permanent except change.


Last thing what I inferred while skimming the entire sea at a time was the fact that woman and sea are same in many respect. Both are deep in their emotions, both have lots of nuggets inside their hearts, both have got the blessings to create new things.

I was standing alone thinking all these weird things, people were smiling probably thinking that this weirdo seems different. I was also doing the same thinking they all are the same. There was smile on everyone's face including mine. That day i learnt "life is all about celebration" . We should celebrate everything doesn't matter if it is death...................

miss you...

.....few people came in ur life and just go like that.....
but they leave an aroma behind which forever lasts....
Doesn't matter whether u talked or shared much feelings....
but their presence only can do loads of healing....
itz strange that it hurts a lot while they leave....
still u r not able to the emotions the love in which u alwayz had believe...
u fight wid ur inner-selves why this separation pains...
but deep down inside u know that humans are alwayz in chains...